I have cancer. This is why I haven't been blogging lately becuase I've been trying to avoid myself. It's so horrible...

I woke up today feeling like I've never felt before. Terrified. Afraid to open my eyes and face the reality that has be set down before me.
It's such a struggle to wake up and meet the day with optimism. I've actually been sleeping in more. Missing work, missing classes... not eating.

I hate it. I want a cure. I want to be better. I want to be okay. I want to be... a super hero. I want to fly in the sky and eat large apple pies. I want to shave a bear and wear it's fur like a luxurious coat. I want to be the one who takes you across the moat. I want a big boat, a big yellow one that has smiling stars on the side that sails on dream power! I wanna live forever! I WANNA LIGHT UP THE SKY LIKE A FLAME! FAME!


Today: "practical joke day" complete (thanks for the help, Kira :)). I really don't have cancer. BOOYA! Sorry for that. But i was told i need to be more "gung-ho" about the days, so this is a start! Oh yeah, I tried to tell Sun that God doesn't exist, but I was too afraid. So instead of telling him, I whispered it to him. And he was sleeping. With headphones on... whatever. Subliminal messages can be pracitcal jokes too!

I took a little break from the book for a few days, I just flat out forgot to do the stuff. So I'm starting up again tomorrow and doing THREE days at once! Days I will be doing: apply for knighthood, walk barefoot on the grass and keep a proper diary account of my day. LOVELY!